Mkmma Wk. 22 ~ Stunning. I’ve been being Me…


     Considering FEAR, GUILT, ANGER, HURT FEELINGS, and UNWORTHINESS this week and how they can be used as tools.

     One of my Personal Pivotal Needs is ‘Helping Others’.   I have frequently found myself in this role and drawn to it, yet feeling dissatisfied and guilty, and like I’m being proud or arrogant, and ‘who do I think I am’ etc.

     I believe I get something radically different at this point.   As I have been called to help several others through very difficult situations these last weeks and sing at funerals, and be with hurting people, I have great joy.  It was other’s ‘putting on me’ that I was a ‘showoff’ or acting like I want to ‘be in everyone’s business’  or others just being non-supportive and critical.

     The feelings I was experiencing were real, but based on ERROR.  I have been being me. Some have had a problem with that.   I realize that I didn’t fully accept that in me and I was always apologetic to MYSELF since I was not measuring up to ‘WHOEVER’S’ idea of what/how/who I should be.  Or doing these things in spite of how some felt about it and hope they didn’t find out.

     A bit nuts I think.  BUT out of this week’s pondering, a sudden revelation.  HELPING IS WHAT I MUST BE ABOUT.   IT IS ME.  AND THAT’S THAT.

     So I have been hurt, have been angry sometimes, I have been worried or fearful about what others think and what that will look like.  Feeling unworthy secretly to accept praise yet hungering deeply for it.

     I will be me and do what is in my DNA to do, and that’s it.  How or what others in the past or currently think about it, is their choice.  I am not connected by strings to them anymore.  God knows what He made me for.  And I know.

     I shall dance my dance freely and sprinkle Happy Dust while doing so for the care and love of others and the honouring of who I am and what I am about.

     The Five components and I have divorced.  We will bump here and there in passing but no longer have a marriage.    We shall pass as ships in the night with gladness and no fear.



mkmma ~ week 20 ~ “By George, I think I’ve Got it!”

a surprising and welcome event that is not explicable by natural or scientific laws and is therefore considered to be the work of a divine agency.
  1. “the miracle of rising from the grave”
    synonyms: wonder, marvel, sensation, phenomenon, supernatural phenomenon,mystery

    “his recovery was a blessed miracle”

    It was none of the above, though each is wonderful. After the webby was over, I looked up the dictionary def. of miracle. Describes it basically as something that is so amazing that it is assumed to be the result of divine action. (or that is close to what it said)
    *** The thing is, as you pointed out, with Bible stories, those were definite miracles.
    *** What I GOT, is that I am one of those amazing, God-designed miracles. Psalm 139 changed my life as it describes that wonderful point. BUT I COULD NOT EQUATE ME, WITH SUCH A PROFOUND TITLE AS ‘A MIRACLE’. SEEMED TOO MUCH TO THINK OF MYSELF AS THAT. BUT IT’S TRUE. WE EACH ARE. IF THE OTHER PERSON IS, THEN I AM TOO!
    *** I have previously thought of external manifestations of God’s power as MIRACLES, but the quiet miracle of each of us, including me, from pre-conception to this very moment and as long as I live is just full of wonder and amazement. “Why should the miracle that gave me life stop at my birth?”
    SO ****** THANK YOU ALL. THIS IS QUITE A DISCOVERY!  I KNEW IT, BUT DIDN’T  K N O W  IT! Love, Laura10404890_10152471093280944_5051596939729626767_n

wk. 21 MKMMA ~ Calm Peace Came. Barriers Evaporated.

How can we use:

  • FEAR


Use them for motivation to make change if change is something good to do.


I am a miracle of God’s doing made for good stuff.   I get to see that I live each day as my last and do in each day what is ordained for the day, without looking back, but looking forward to what God and I are creating in my life.  That means letting go of all things that do not contribute positively to the Purposeful Life I live.

Those things are in my mind to control/ignore/stand on the neck of & go forward !

They are an indicator light so to speak, that my old blueprint is wanting to be SAFE.

AT THE SAME TIME my new blueprint is depending on me for support and honouring.

I CHOOSE to support my new blueprint and go forward like pushing through tall grass nonstop and parting it as I go!    Or a ship slicing through the ridiculously massive walls of water, as it goes forward to its’ goal.10454551_10152462647129425_5652329042701601863_n




wk. 20 MKMMA ~What a Cotton-Picking week!

Yes, the week started 7 days ago with a visit and a call to a friend’s death bed.  It was tough and yet precious at the same time.  Love was there.  Words were not possible, but when I sang favourite hymns and my husband and I, on each side of her, holding a soft cool hand, whispered lovely things to our friend, and told how proud we were of her and her accomplishments, she squeezed our hands.  BUT the biggest thing we affirmed to her was great joy in having watched her become who she allowed herself to become, drove/pushed herself to become, IN SPITE OF.

In spite of …. Fill in the blanks.  In spite of all of it, she persevered and became a blessing to so many.  Lovely people who many may have overlooked.  Raising a beautiful daughter who cared for her 24/7 for the last 6 months.  Yes, there was help, but she gave herself to her mom for the duration.

Then, the push as I’m aware of my headaches and visual changes that surface from time to time as a result of a concussion I suffered 4 weeks ago.  The push to do what was necessary to do each day.  Then the call that our friend’s journey here was over and she had winged her way to the very presence of her Lord and Saviour.    Then her wonderful service on Thursday.  A 3-cultural blending of her family and friends.  Precious.  Worshipful.  Fun.  Delightful.  Honouring.  Beautiful.

Then finding on Friday, tests confirming that part of my eyeball is not seeing.  No doubt due to the concussion.  Waiting for further testing.  Waiting waiting.

Then today the joy of friends dropping in unexpectedly who live 700 miles away. They arrived mid-morning and stayed until mid-afternoon and what a wonderful visit. The icing on the cake of a particularly unusual and roller-coaster week.

Would I change anything?  Well maybe the concussion and its’ lingering effects.  But  all the rest, NO.  Not at all.  You see, I get great joy from Helping and Ministering to others.   And as I am open to the opportunity to do so, God sends others to me, or places me in situations where I can just be who I am.  Where I can make someone’s load easier, whether in their living, or their dying, I want to be there.  It is my Joy.

How is it YOU will serve others?   What we do in life that brings the most satisfaction and makes our world a better place is ultimately some form of SERVICE to others.

What is your SERVICE NICHE?   Someone said “Playing small doesn’t serve the world.” So find your place of true service, in your home/family, work, community, world.  Where is it? Someone, some cause is looking for someone just like you.   Take up the call and really find Joy and Purpose!   Hugs to everyone reading this and thank you for reading.




MKMMA – WK 19 – “That Mirror”

I ran into a mirror yesterday. Not  my mirror.  Unexpected.  Not from where, not from whom I would have thought.

What I discovered is that their expression of what THEY saw in the mirror touched me and I thought of my mirror.  Thought of my DMP, thought of my progress in my changing attitudes, behaviours, thoughts, disciplines.  Thankfully there has been some serious and important changes in those very things.  BUT….

the singing of the ‘Man in the Mirror’ that I had never heard, reduced me to tears.  How lovely an expression of the DESIRE to start with the man in the mirror.  And how tragically that life ended.   So I wondered how that revelation of changing oneself, changed him, or just his bank account, or popularity.  Did it give him the peace and joy that I’m sure he longed for. I wonder what changes he envisioned?  Perhaps the revelation is not enough.

For me, I have learned a lot from the Master Key training.  It has been a whole new world.   However, it is easy to slide, I confess.   I do not choose to slide.  I choose to dig in even more and allow myself to be ‘MAXIMIZED’ in person for me and those I serve and will yet serve through the actualizing of my DMP.

Watch this performance.  He was a Master entertainer!   Thank you Michael for wonderful contributions to our world.


MKMMA wk. 18 ~ It’s Going to Be OKAY!!

It’s Going to Be OKAY, he said ~ click Here.

Pretty amazing circumstances to have calmly stated that to another.

He not only said it, he allowed it to change his life, finding his PURPOSE/s and bringing meaning and value to the lives of others.  FIND WHAT IT IS YOU WERE PUT HERE FOR AND DO IT WITH ALL YOUR HEART.   Those things which are most satisfying will find you in SERVICE and BLESSING TO OTHERS.

Thank you for allowing me to be part of your life.

I hope to always be an – UPPER-LIFTER!


MKMMA ~ wk. 17b ~ We Came To DANCE!!



He has a PLAN for BE ing WHO we are as individuals, and BE coming all that we are and CAN BE in this Life.  What is our purpose?  What is your purpose for being here?  Have we nailed it?  Are we on course to fulfilling our dreams and goals and finding ~ even Making those goals happen? 

That’s our job.  And those things CAN be found!  That’s the Good News!

A SK  …..

S EEK …..

K NOCK …..

One thing I know is that this living, relational God has wonderful things in store in the future and I am certainly enjoying the journey as I STEP INTO that which He has for me.  It is a BLAST!  I am made in His image, for His purposes to make the world a better place.  See, PLAYING SMALL DOES NOT SERVE THE WORLD.  Do your BEST in all you do and shoot for the moon as far as impact and benefit to the world.  God has your back.  You cannot be in Better Hands.

WE CAME TO DANCE! – click on this link.