Being Happy Requires Some Clear Decisions.

Happiness is a choice.  Being pleasant is a choice.

     How I feel inside, is mine to deal with.  How I project to

others is my choice.  I have days and times when I do

not feel just tickety-boo.  But, I do not choose to dump

my feelings and situation on everyone’s plate.

     I do find appropriate ways to share and process those things,

and thereby grow in my maturity through these events.

Life brings all kinds of opportunity to learn and grow and it is

not always in fun stuff.

Still, choose to be a student and ask ~  What CAN I learn?

What HAVE I learned?  What will I do differently?

     I ask God frequently when things are tough, “Please don’t waste

any of this suffering.”  There is a cost to developing capable-ness and

cope-ability.   Be willing to pay the price.  It is so worth it. Go the

journey, and never give up knowing that you are ‘IN PROCESS’  that

there is a positive outcome for you ~ as life is worked through with God,

knowing that all things will turn out for good.  It is our FAITH that puts

it in action.

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Mkmma Wk. 22 ~ Stunning. I’ve been being Me…

…ALL ALONG!

     Considering FEAR, GUILT, ANGER, HURT FEELINGS, and UNWORTHINESS this week and how they can be used as tools.

     One of my Personal Pivotal Needs is ‘Helping Others’.   I have frequently found myself in this role and drawn to it, yet feeling dissatisfied and guilty, and like I’m being proud or arrogant, and ‘who do I think I am’ etc.

     I believe I get something radically different at this point.   As I have been called to help several others through very difficult situations these last weeks and sing at funerals, and be with hurting people, I have great joy.  It was other’s ‘putting on me’ that I was a ‘showoff’ or acting like I want to ‘be in everyone’s business’  or others just being non-supportive and critical.

     The feelings I was experiencing were real, but based on ERROR.  I have been being me. Some have had a problem with that.   I realize that I didn’t fully accept that in me and I was always apologetic to MYSELF since I was not measuring up to ‘WHOEVER’S’ idea of what/how/who I should be.  Or doing these things in spite of how some felt about it and hope they didn’t find out.

     A bit nuts I think.  BUT out of this week’s pondering, a sudden revelation.  HELPING IS WHAT I MUST BE ABOUT.   IT IS ME.  AND THAT’S THAT.

     So I have been hurt, have been angry sometimes, I have been worried or fearful about what others think and what that will look like.  Feeling unworthy secretly to accept praise yet hungering deeply for it.

     I will be me and do what is in my DNA to do, and that’s it.  How or what others in the past or currently think about it, is their choice.  I am not connected by strings to them anymore.  God knows what He made me for.  And I know.

     I shall dance my dance freely and sprinkle Happy Dust while doing so for the care and love of others and the honouring of who I am and what I am about.

     The Five components and I have divorced.  We will bump here and there in passing but no longer have a marriage.    We shall pass as ships in the night with gladness and no fear.

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